Stay at Home Mom

I pray that all of you are well. I must admit to being under the weather lately, but I am feeling better. I hope you don’t mind, but this post is me writing myself out of hurt feelings and negative thoughts.

I have been thinking a lot about different circumstances in my life and the people closest to me. Sometimes my thinking is positive, but other times I find my thoughts are negative. Like some, I can fall into the trap of self pity, and I can throw the best pity parties.

But Philippians 4:8 says,
“Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.”

I’m learning how to think differently about myself, my life, and everyone I know. My purpose on this earth is still unclear, but that is no reason to allow my thoughts to put me down.

During the times my thoughts have me feeling down, I look at my daughter. Somehow, she always has a smile reserved for me. Her growth brings joy to my heart, and I thank God for being able to experience motherhood with such an amazing little one. I’m blessed beyond measure.

When I think of her imitating her favorite animals, tasting new foods, and saying new words; I can’t contain the feelings of love that overflows in my heart. My thoughts are filled with gratitude for being able to love someone so special. I know she is my gift from God. She is a gift I didn’t deserve.

How can someone, who started off so little inside me, have the ability to make changes in me? God definitely knows how to make changes in us without us knowing.

If my daughter ever gets the chance to see this, I would like her to know that my thoughts of her are always full of loving and understanding. I think I understand unconditional love now.

Prayer: God, thank you for all the good You bring into my life. The joy and peace that fills me when it’s just me and You. The overflow of love that pours out from You. That same love flows from me to my little one and everyone in my life. I ask that You keep shining Your light of truth in my life. Help me to remain desperate for Your presence. I pray for the person reading this blog. Engulf their heart and fill their soul with everything they are lacking. Remove anything that is not like You. Remind them, in the way only You can do, that they’re so unconditionally loved by You. That You love them even more than I can love my daughter. You are a good God, and You deserve all the glory, honor, and praise. In the name of Jesus I pray.

Sincerely Your Sister,

JJJ.